final exam

so i officially finished my exam on friday. i really would've liked to get off to a good start to put me in a confident mood, but ooooooooooh. yeah i really screwed this one up. i started with MPKT, which looked like a crazy question when i looked at it fleetingly in the reading time. for me it was something like errrm. but i found it so hard with this question for some reason. it felt so restrictive- so much i had studied just didn't fit in with that argument but i'd spent nearly 20 minutes on this text alone and then that screwed up the rest of my exam. there were a lot of things i had to say for 'forests, education, technology etc etc' because it was the main text for which i had points that proved my argument, and by the time that was done my forty minutes was up and i was freaking out. i figured if i could do section I quickly i'd save some time to be able to come back to section II. i did 20 minutes and answered reasonably, but still very rushed and probably lacking detail zzzz.

december

i have one month left in the semester, and i have 5 quizzes, 6 tests, 1 speaking pratical and the final exam to do. i'm kicking my self off the internet and making my self do nothing but sleep, eat, sleep, eat, sleep, eat, and errhh study!

happy birthday

to you, ©

it's so weird that it's your birthday already. hey, you're 20. it seems like yesterday that i just spoke to you and said happy birthday. oh, i wasn't going to write anything much here, i'll save the long talk before sleep tonight. be ready! have fun up there in the UK and party it up fatty. come home soon xoxo

p.s : there's someone loves you far more than you know with a love that keeps growing as day as come and go. have a very happy birthday! i love you arif!

also

and also, i miss you so badly :'(

time bomb and assignments

college? it's such a great idea, i mean, who doesn't want a degree?! but oh, i'm just over assignments right now! why is it so haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaard to motivate my self to do these things? errgghh

anyway, sorry this is a very boring post. i plan to have a lazy night and possibly watch two maybe three films who knows and maybe that will improve my mood, sure sure!

if you would like to recommend a film to me then i shall look in to it and i could be watching a film of your choice :D

do you miss me where you are?

it might sounds like the words right out of the song but it really true!

i can still remember the day that we met it was a saturday night we went to the movie theater. when i come to your home with a pan of pizza included a lame birthday letter that i wrote to you, through the new year's eve and gave a massage to you when your tummy aches. the way you kept looking at me and the smile on your face and at that smile that made the butterflies scramble in my stomach and make my heart skip a beat.
i love being able to talk with you about my day, or what's bothering me. i love being able to lay my head on your chest and hear every beat of your heart. i love holding your hand, because it's then that i feel safe and secure and i feel that i am exactly where i need to be. i know things in life causes us to be separated at times, but i want you to always know that i miss you terribly :(

if you're reading this just know that i'm waiting here even though it hasn't always been easy, every step, every stumble, every fall, has been worth it all to me! and if i'm talking too much of you, please just let me know, or maybe you have and i just haven't realized it.

flake

sometimes we just build ourselves up, knowing we're going to fall.

and sometimes we like the fall.

i mean we have to like it, right? otherwise we wouldn't constantly put ourselves in such predictable situation, the kind that make you feel great while its happening but once the moment passes. so does that feeling. and then you feel stupid and lonely and just disappointed. but that's life!

and we always expect it to get better. it has to sometime, i'm sure. because if these constant let downs and disappointments are all that we have to look forward to. there's a very good chance i'm going just to give up.

and i don't want to give up, but i'm so sick of being let down.

hey people

this is my first post and i don't know where to start anyway i'm lia and i'll write a diary about various things from now on. what a cheesy line to open up. sorry :p