also

and also, i miss you so badly :'(

time bomb and assignments

college? it's such a great idea, i mean, who doesn't want a degree?! but oh, i'm just over assignments right now! why is it so haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaard to motivate my self to do these things? errgghh

anyway, sorry this is a very boring post. i plan to have a lazy night and possibly watch two maybe three films who knows and maybe that will improve my mood, sure sure!

if you would like to recommend a film to me then i shall look in to it and i could be watching a film of your choice :D

do you miss me where you are?

it might sounds like the words right out of the song but it really true!

i can still remember the day that we met it was a saturday night we went to the movie theater. when i come to your home with a pan of pizza included a lame birthday letter that i wrote to you, through the new year's eve and gave a massage to you when your tummy aches. the way you kept looking at me and the smile on your face and at that smile that made the butterflies scramble in my stomach and make my heart skip a beat.
i love being able to talk with you about my day, or what's bothering me. i love being able to lay my head on your chest and hear every beat of your heart. i love holding your hand, because it's then that i feel safe and secure and i feel that i am exactly where i need to be. i know things in life causes us to be separated at times, but i want you to always know that i miss you terribly :(

if you're reading this just know that i'm waiting here even though it hasn't always been easy, every step, every stumble, every fall, has been worth it all to me! and if i'm talking too much of you, please just let me know, or maybe you have and i just haven't realized it.

flake

sometimes we just build ourselves up, knowing we're going to fall.

and sometimes we like the fall.

i mean we have to like it, right? otherwise we wouldn't constantly put ourselves in such predictable situation, the kind that make you feel great while its happening but once the moment passes. so does that feeling. and then you feel stupid and lonely and just disappointed. but that's life!

and we always expect it to get better. it has to sometime, i'm sure. because if these constant let downs and disappointments are all that we have to look forward to. there's a very good chance i'm going just to give up.

and i don't want to give up, but i'm so sick of being let down.

hey people

this is my first post and i don't know where to start anyway i'm lia and i'll write a diary about various things from now on. what a cheesy line to open up. sorry :p